why is it such a paradox. it was a simple statement, simple gesture she made that broke me. I thought I am still bitter, or at least disappointed. Yes, I am still disappointed, because I couldnt understand her decision. But I realise I still love and respect her soo much.

Im such an oxymoron. MORON. I disgrace and insult God with all that I do. Yet, I couldnt stand others muttering a single word of displeasure against God.

What I want to do my flesh did not do. And what I did not want to do my flesh bow down.

God.. I'm at the end of myself.
help. me. to. follow. Your. narrow.way..